Today on December 27, counting from April, how many months was it? I am blur and confused. This evening, I thought it was just an-ex-lovers sitting and eating together, but it was not. It was more than I ever expected for this time. I was not feeling much of that feeling of what we were in the past, still I somehow feel it. When he suddenly held my hand, I can't breath and hide my another clinging hand at the side of me. Do you know how much I wanna hold back that hand of yours and I felt like I was the stupidest girl in the whole world for not doing so, yet I did not. I have no idea why he was doing it and what was his purpose.
Right now, I am sitting writing this post seeking for an answer from nobody but myself. Ing, what is on your mind? Ing, can you handle this relationship over again? Ing, do you remember those time you buried your face in the pillow and cried? Ing, life goes on and you do not want to stuck in this, don't you? Ing, even though you hate to make decisions, it is something you will hate to do more for the rest of your life. Ing, it is time you wake up and clear the line. Ing, I am begging you please. Please wake up and make the decision. How long do you want to stay in this darkness of yours? For so many times and so many posts, I begged and ask for nothing but the same questions. Please...
