On a windy Sunday evening sitting on a park bench at Koh Pich, under the yellowish lights in a crowded environment, it is a time for family gathering, friends gathering, and as well as couples’ dates. You tend to see groups of close-knit families having picnic laughing and enjoying their time under the moonlight. On the other hand, you will see two hands clutching together in one walking pass you and all you could fantasize is staring at them from the back wondering why your hands are empty. That is me.
Naturally,
if someone is alone or I call it single, seeing couples and reading love notes
make he or she melts inside like iceberg or the feelings just flow like your
blood runs backward through your vein. That is the feeling. A lot of the people
I know have had lots of love experiences and as well as heart broken. Have you
ever wondered why love tends to never last for teens?
I,
myself, have walked through this path enough to raise it up for everyone to
give it a thought. I have been in one relationship for one third of my life and
I have never really known what love really is. I have wasted a blaze of my time
I was supposed to be studying caring and fooling about love. I could not resist
the temptation and loneliness. All I knew was I needed to have a lover there to
care and be by my side because the nights were so lonely and pitch black without
someone there to say sweet words and cuddle me to sleep. When things turned out
wrong, I felt like there is nothing left to live for. I was so wrong!
I
have been single for over a year now and I have realized the dreams and
achievements I have accomplished for all these times. I have become very
active, optimistic, sociable, and hung out with my friends. Most importantly, I
have enjoyed time with my family and I also have time for myself. I have many
supportive friends to be there for me all the time. Who said only lovers could
do that? I tried very hard on my dreams and knowing I will succeed in it and
yes, I did and that is worth more than a thousand times of joy you feel than
being in love. I see the world brighter and prettier. It is like being an
unchain bird for I could do whatever my heart longs for. I no longer feel the burden
on my shoulder. I started to go after my dreams and to dream bigger. How can I
handle it? I learned the meaning of love after I lost it. Being alone doesn’t
mean you are lonely. If you want to be
happy, learn to be alone without being lonely. Learn that being alone does not
mean being unhappy. The world is full of plenty of interesting and enjoyable
things to do.
Most
of the people do not know what lies within them. When they sense the
loneliness, they desperately need to find someone to ease it away and fill in
the gap. However, it turned out they made the wrong choice, a choice they did
not make out of love but the urge. Then they keep repeating the same mistakes. This
is not love. Give yourself a break and find the real you. Then you will realize
there are a bunch of things waiting for you to do and to facilitate. We have a
long way to find love and being all by yourself now means you are strong enough
to stand still alone. A word of advice my friends, patiently wait for the right
one rather than randomly grab someone in just to fulfill it.
