We have been in a very bad condition lately. He has not been talking to me since that day we argued over the stupid box thing. I apologized, I reached to him, I called so many times a day, I've done almost all I can to bring us back but he is not buying. I have no idea what he is mad about. He ignored me completely and I felt so bad. Today he texted me that he won't be home as he went to the doctor's house and I suggested If I could go with him but he said he was already on the way. Then I went out with Kolin riding around riverside and sat there by the river at Koh Pich. I called him again at 6:30 to ask. He said he was home because the doctor was not in. I asked if he has eaten anything and he said he's going out with some friends soon and that he's kinda busy at shop now. He was trying to dropnme a hint that he didn't want me to go to his house. I knew.
This is how stupid I could be. I went to his house to see him but in far distance. He's sick and I wanted to see him so inparked my car in front of RUPP and sat under the tree and peek at his house. He was upstairs and I didn't get to see him. Honestly. Another part of me was to see if he's going out with who. That moment I hate myself so much. Where is all the trust I have for him? How could I be so stupid to be sneaking around here?
I found a piece of lyrics in his room title Cher chab mneak eng bro ser jeang komdor oun. I read it and I was shocked. Has he been thinking about me loving another guy and sympathize him? How could he? He should be clear about this more than anyone else. I have no idea if he is really been feeling that way that he tried to push me away. Because of this, I tried to hard to bring him back and never let go but the way he's been acting really hurt me.
