What? 21 Already?

It sure is that time flies. It was just yesterday that I had my 20th birthday and now people are coming to me saying Happy 21 Birthday already? So I am 21 now. 21, Ing!!!! Well, although to some people, this number is pretty much time to prepare for an upcoming marriage or something big to be responsible for, yet for me, I still feel who I am like couple years ago. I do not feel anything different when the number increases from year to year in a split moment. I am still a kid, well yeah a girl. Some of my friends had a light-heart discussion that I am just turning 20 according to Khmer counting stuff like that and I was said, "When people ask me how old I am then I will tell them 20 or 21 and choose one". I guess I do not care that much about those unseen and unpredictable future. I do not want to drag some kind of irrelevant responsibilities to heavy my shoulder. I just want to live freely like this  and do just about whatever I want. For some reason, I have to be more mature, thoughtful, considerate, and responsible for some responsibility. Even though I said I do not care those things about marriage, I am kinda scared inside. Whatsoever, I am just gonna be me and still be me :)

I really appreciate all the wishes my friends have wished me. I feel so grateful today, genuinely. On top of that, thanks for the surprise gift from wen caisheng and a cake from Beta. Thank you so much!

I have mentioned in one of my wish-list that I wanted to spend my birthday with him. Since we have been together for almost 5 years, we have never celebrated whoever's birthday before. Unbelievable, isn't it? I know and I am curious too. Whenever anyone's birthday is on, something always comes up, always. For this year, I really planed that I could somehow or at least have a casual dinner together, but again, something came up. It was his best friend's brother's wedding. What am I suppose to do? Nothing. Actually, we planned to have dinner at a so-called restaurant first before he went to the wedding but he has to pick his friends up along the way and when we got to the wedding, it was almost time I have to go home already. We could not have dinner since it was already late, so I told him to go the wedding and I would drive home alone. Just drove past the wedding hall, I found my tears rolled down my cheek inadvertently. I was crying alone under the dark sky again.

Lastly, Happy 21st Birthday!