I notice I am being over-extrovert now while IELTS is so close ahead. I spend a blaze of time having fun and leaving books unopened. I did feel grumpy and erroneous about it, but I could not keep myself from straying away. The scariest thing to know is that I can not cope up with the lessons in class after spending almost a week in Bangkok. I thought I can always cope up when it comes to English, but not this time around. I find it hard to concentrate in class and my mind is always somewhere else which I do not even know where it went. I seldom read books now and could barely pick up a pen and write an essay. Instead, you would find me in FB doing irrelevant things! Is it the effect of the broken heart of mine? I am feeling genuinely guilty for not fulfilling my responsibilities. In a month, I will come with an ace of getting high band in IELTS. Well, it is hard for me to be as pure as the driven snow, a lil' playful and bitchy is not a total bad thing. It makes life more exciting!
Like every time, I need inspiration, encourage, and motivation, but where can I absorb it from. It is not that I am still at Aii anymore. I have drained it all and seeking back for it is not like a piece a cake. I will have to boost myself up and stick with books from now on. Fighting! :)
