It was on the 20th which was on result released day. He called! He asked me if I have anyone to accompany me to listen to the result and that he would willing to be that person. Not knowing, I agreed. We spent the whole noon together and he asked me a lot of questions about my life during the time he left. Still he was, acting like nothing happen, like he held no responsibility for this. He even suggested on things I should do about my future. I sat and nodded most of the time. I felt so uneasy and annoyed.
What was even fool-er was that I called off my cousin's party and went to celebrate with him and his friends. Honestly, the feeling came again. I wanted to be with him, yet I had to keep myself from being controlled from this feeling. It was as hard as dying. I wanted to run away and cried so much. I kept telling myself that I do not want to be the before-me, the painful me. I have been trying my damnedest for almost six months and I could not throw away all those effort.
Owing to being fooled, I did it! I did not turn back. I think I had somehow showed him the reaction that we were no longer like what we used to be. It was over since the day he left which was on 9th April for a very silly reason. He left me because he was bored and annoyed of me. I do not know what I am suppose to say and how I am suppose to feel. I am inconsolable.
